my dear friend

you most certainly do get it
honestly
what does one begin to think
i will never again allow anyone
who is not willing to listen
and hear what one is saying
how is that doctor learning
anything for that matter
and being with this one
who writes out my scripts
that do nothing but but mask
pain
or rather ATTEMPT to get it right
ooooooooooh how frustrating
for if i weren't with him for so long
i would drop him as i would a hot plate
and then the shrink suggests to
write a note
what do you mean write a note
i think to myself
note
never can it be explained in a note
and i personally
like looking into ones eyes
when speaking to them
pain has overtaken this body
in a blink of an eye
i cry out at times
Lord Jesus
make it stop
i cannot help but wonder
what i would be like to wake
up one day and the pain be gone
just like that
just like it came on
thought i woke up with a stiff neck
stiff alright now

the blessings i am aware of
and of those unseen to the eye
for in my heart i understand
We are human
this comes with responsibility of all kinds
even as we grow from seedlings
till the end of life as we know it
as humans
and with any luck you find the
Spirit plane of life
and all that other in between stuff in life
we must be responsible
as we get there
i am teaching my grandchild the 10 commandments
keeping it simple
she hears me speak to my Father
my Brother
the Our Father she loves
given to us by the Son of our Father
his name Jesus Christ
no one can deny of such a man
i wonder if science
will be more in touch with
the possibilities what our Father
ALLOWS
Amen

to my community of friends
who accepted me and keeps me afloat
as my time here has become a live journal
in some ways
may my experience strength and hope
be received and is helpful

Father thank you for what i am about to receive today
let me not hurt
in Jesus i trust
love me