Hello and I hope you are OK. Try just to enjoy each single day, without thought of tomorrow. Try meditation, and blanking your mind out. I turn 60 tuesday, and I am beyond half way point. I have medical issues as well. When I get really bummed out, I read. It takes you far away to other existances, away from your own life. I am reading "The Cat's Table" About some young boys, on an ocean voyage, getting into all the nooks and crannys aboard the ship. It is about growing up, and what we all learn. Great read, and an adventure. I first tried reading when I was coming home from Mayo clinic. I could not stop crying. At a rest stop I picked up Ann Mcgathrys The White Dragon. I wound up riding a dragon, and visting the land of Pern. I stopped crying too. I use this as an escape, and it does work. I do wish you all the best. A peacefull and restfull Sunday. I hope you have a friend to turn to. Tap back at me anytime. ginnie