i seem to have released a lot of my anger although i didn't sleep last night.
Marci in doing housework is always fantastic. I have taken care of others since i was 4 and don't like it when she tries to take charge. I remind her that a few weeks ago Sam a corporate lawyer thought I was awesome.
Yesterday I tried pouring water into a cup by my bed. She didn't put the top of the pitcher on right and most of water spilled all over. both phones stopped working. i ordered two new ones from amazon and wrote robert for help. he said he would come by today. i kept on checking the phones. after a few hours they worked. wrote robert. wrote amazon to try to cancel order. too late. hopefully robert will explain what happened.

Bobby,

I'm so sorry you had all that trouble. I sure hope you also
reported Marci, unless it was just one of those days for her.

But she shouldn't be taking the bad days out on you.

Donna

i didn't mention that yet. Practically everything has gotten so horrible except I read that persians could live for 20 years and I am getting a volunteer once a week for a visit. I can't believe I got rid of my oldest friend.
I did report Marci for a few other things. As I mention Sam my thirty year old corporate lawyer whom i speak to every Sunday though I was awesome.. Doesn't that mean I can still think well? My caseworker just told me she thought I was wonderful. I have been taking care of others since I was 4. Growing up with a drunken father and being the caretaker was my job.
One day this week Marci told me to turn off the computer, buy two bags of cat food and why was I peeing so much which I wasn't. I never turn off the computer and chewy delivers the cat food within 3 days and why two bags.
I told my caseworker and she was shocked. She finally said to tell marci there is a reason for everything and i know what i am doing.

this is the nicest card i ever got from a young Dorot volunteer with a picture of a turkey on the front.
Hello!
Happy Thanksgiving! I hope you have a great day filled with splendid food to enjoy with loved ones. I would like to share the fact that countless numbers of people are thankful for you ,including me, Don't forget that and continue to enjoy yourself.
Sincerely,
Erin

That is a beautiful card and wording.

And if your talking about turning Marci in. It was just what I thought
and hoped you had done.

I honestly think with what you said, that Marci said, that she may be trying
to make you think you don't know how or what you are doing.
So make sure you write down somewhere like in a journal her thoughts
that she gives you especially about the things she thinks you should buy.

I'm wondering if she may be getting ready to suggest you buy some shoes
and the clothes like you used to again. Thinking if you don't want them
she can have them. I know that sounds like I'm thinking to much
But its something that would make since.

Donna

i wonder if the card was written by a boy or girl. it touched my soul..
I am just so very depressed about Marci. Now my caseworker knows and was speechless about the peeing comment.
marci is definitely not getting any more shoes or clothes from me. I have also stopped buying. If I WANT TO GET RID OF SOMETHING I THROW IT AWAY NOW.

Do you think Marci's losing it?

this week has been one of the most painful periods of my life. my mother was so cruel. so heartless to me. she only cared about herself. as i have mentioned her sister was my grandmother's favorite. auntie helen was an intellectual and didn't care about material things. she had david. david was asked by president clinton to be his chief speech writer for his first term after clinton read his book.
bipolar is enough.
I am going to try to just think about all my beloved animals and the wonderful friends I have had and have.
I am strong.

Bobby,

I am not sure what is up with Marci, can I ask do you have any idea who's
funeral she went too. Could some of her problems with the way she is
acting right now be related to the death in the family or a friendship.

Maybe she is really having trouble with that too. I honestly find her remarks
to you not to be very polite and that she to me is just saying things that
are out of character. So I'm wondering if she is hurting.

I think you need to just watch what she says and maybe does for a while.

If it gets a lot worse then maybe not have her a while.

Donna

she did have a funeral recently, maybe a month and a half ago but she always has a tendency to be very bossy. you know i have anger issues. i am trying to think of my dogs and kitties, reading, and watching a little news.
She mentioned watching channel 1 which covers local news but i only watch msnbc. so didn't take the hint.
i have to start searching for what I can eat that won't upset my stomach.
love,
bobby

if marci comes on monday i am going to let her have it. my anger is growing. she really overstepped her boundaries.
I am sure Robert will cash checks for me when i need money which isn't that often and I think Kathy would go to the doctors with me twice a year and maybe i can go to the dentist alone 4 tines a year.
marci is undermining my feelings of independence. i have explained to her how important that is to me. rats